So, eating is going well and then...........




ACHOO!!! :)

Isabella is growing in leaps and bounds everyday! Look how well she can hold her head up! She is also "talking" back to us. :) Such a cutie patootie!

Last night a friend of mine half joking says to me "What happened to you? That baby sure put a cramp in your style. Geez, you can't do anything anymore..no class...no parties. I sure hope it's worth it."
So, as I am sitting here in my sleep deprived state I take a look around my house and am in absolute shock in what has changed in the last year. You see, our beautiful baby girl was conceived last Valentines Day (chocolates and Champagne) and the whirlwind that has now become my life is astounding to me. Work has been replaced with well, unpaid work. Work outs with friends have been replaced with breastfeeding. It seems there is no time to work out while breastfeeding every two hours. I used to get my hair cut and highlighted by a trained professional. It was expensive, but something that made me feel and look good. I now cut my hair in the bathroom and wonder how long it will take for these highlights to grow out. I had my dream car...it was replaced by a rather large grocery getter. I would sleep through the night, now I don't even remember what it's like to wake up well rested. I look at my pre Bella clothes and wonder so many things... how did I ever fit into those? Will I ever fit into those? Why do I feel like I have to fit into those?

But, here is the thing. This feels nice. I miss my friends, I really miss my classes, I miss my car, but it seems I was always meant to be a Mommy first. It puts things into perspective for me. It is impossible to go down the road of "what might have been" when my sweet little Bella looks me in the eyes and smiles that smile that could light up the sky. I can't imagine where life would have taken my little family had she not come into our world. What an incredible irony, that as difficult as she sometimes makes things, her presence has made it so much better.

So many of the things that are sacrificed being a mother, they seem to be the luxuries in life. My babies are the necessities and they are the only things that make sense. The only things I can't live without. So, my half joking friend, yes there are things that are difficult having an infant in the house, worth it? 100%